I was brought here to Union Gospel Mission from the hospital. I had been doing a lot of drugs and alcohol. Earlier I was released from the hospital and took a cab straight to the liquor mart. This time I ended back in the hospital in the mental ward after wanting to end it all and commit suicide. I had kissed my kids goodbye, and my mom saw what was happening, so she called the ambulance.
While in the hospital, I knew I was lost and broken. My children were taken away and put into 3 separate foster homes. I was angry and lashed out at CFS and the nurses around me. One nurse gave me a bunch of pamphlets and one of them was for Union Gospel Mission.
Now coming here and being sober, I have been dealing with many feelings of hurt, loss, loneliness and being lost. My parents had money, they bought me a house and gave me everything, yet I was still broken. It was a culture shock when I came to this area of the city.
I do not know what my plan is from here, but I now know God has a plan for me. I need to follow Him. I know I am in the right spot, because my kids are now living with my Mom (at age 69). It is tough only seeing them every couple of weeks for 2 hours, but here I am able focus on healing through God. I am able to talk with them. I am looking forward to taking care of my kids again.
My mom sees the change in me. She has lost 2 of her children already and keeps praying for me. I am not ready to leave the program and still have a ways to go.
Isaiah 41:10 - "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."