I grew up in a single parent home. My parents divorced when I was young. Many things traumatized me. My brain used to only store negative things. I would drink at 4 in the morning and go to work drunk. After a few years of working while drink, I had to do a drug and alcohol test. I couldn't get away with that any more. So, I was living on the street and still gave in to the drugs and alcohol. The temptation was too great.
When I was here 10 years ago, I made some changes, but never stopped listening to Satan. I need to make sure that I am focusing on God, not religion. I enjoyed going to lively church services, but I still did not focus on God. UGM helps me focus on God and God alone. Now, I look to focus on God, to find His nature and His creation in everything. He grace is sufficient for me.
I am an inheritance, a child of God. He is my Father. Now I have new role models here at UGM. I remember the encouragement that the chaplains gave to me when I have very difficult days. I try to remember these things now, instead of the negative things that were always in my mind.
My favorite Bible verse I remember:
- the Lord is my shepherd
- Psalm 91
- the Lord's prayer
I look forward to the next phase of recovery.